Dear 3 year old me, Happy birthday!
You are 3 now! And this is me (you), at 35. I want you to know that at this point in time, we turned out fine. We are very much loved, contented, and happy with what we have and what we have become. We are still very much single (but not lonely) and we can now afford as many books, color pencils, accessories and beautiful dresses as we want 🙂
At 6, you will be in kindergarten. You will notice a cute little boy who can’t stop stealing glances of you. Be brave, go on and ask him his name if you like. Don’t over analyze, have fun with life. At that time, dad would be 36 and he would pick you up from kindergarden with his motobike. Don’t be afraid of the weird looking bike, just enjoy every moment of the ride and remember to hold on to dad with dear life 🙂
At 7, we’ll move to a new town call Labis. You’ll love it there at the government quarters because it has a huge compound for you, our brother and our puppy to run around. Yes, a puppy and we named her Princes. A couple of years after that, you will have several ghostly encounter at school and in the house that we live in. Don’t be afraid, it’s a phase that you must go through, know that there is nothing you can do to make it go away. Be brave.
At 10, mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. It’s going to be tough for you…most of the time you just didn’t know how to react. Because at 10, we were often misunderstood due to our individuality and sensitivity. But don’t worry, mom had the operation and is still here with me at 35.
At 12, we moved to another town call Batu Pahat. That’s where we were born. So were mom, dad and our brother. It’s also a town where most of our relatives are. You’re going to hate the all-girls school and funnily enough it was also the first time that we had a crush on a girl. Yeah…so thank God we’ve gotten into a co-ed school in high school. Else I am not quite sure if we are going to end up being gay or straight.
At 15-18, this will be a very tough period in your life. You will have a lot of difficult moments with mom and dad. Being a first time parent to a teenage girl is tough enough. Be kinder to them and understand that they brought us up the best way they knew how. During our teenage years, you’ll get to know a girl whom would be your best friend and your pillar of strength for many years to come.
At 18, you will meet Allan. Your first love, probably the one and only man whom you want to marry at that time. He will sweep you off your feet, buy you presents and make you feel like a queen. He is also going to break your heart and cause you lotsa pain and tension with mom and dad. And he is going to try to come back into your life again and again. The hurt will be painful and you are going to wonder how stupid can you be. Dont…move on, forgive him and let him be a bygone.
At 23, you will leave home for college and you will be on cloud nine for the freedom you will get. Go easy on partying and all the booze. And oh, don’t just memorize all the text book, try to understand and make some sense out of it.
At this time, At 25, you got your first job as a junior programmer. You are going to feel miserable, renting a room with a bunch of strangers, with no friends to hang out with on weekend. At work, your manager is gonna be a dick because you are a fresh graduate out of college with no working experience. You will quit within a month and you will feel like a failure. Well don’t. Because less than 1 year after that, you will know that you made the right choice to quit. That chapter will make you more determined for success and all the wonderful opportunity in years to come. You’ll move back to KL within a year to start over, you’ll love your job and have lots of great friends from work.
At 26, you’ll get to know Maga, a wonderful guy from Ingushetia whom I think might be our soul mate. You’ll have a lot of good memories with Maga…treasure every moment spent with him, forgive him if he can’t spend as much time as you would like him to, tell him often that you love him because 4 years after that, you will lose him to a car accident…If you can, keep all the photos you have together, don’t throw them away just because you are angry.
In your late 20s, you’ll be more in touch with your spirituality. You’ll start pondering the purpose of life and your existence. You’ll finally understand the concept of God. And you’ll realize that God is around you and within you. And that is enough.
At 32 till 34, we’ll have a wonderful time working with the World’s Best Low Cost airline. We’ll get to fulfill our dream of traveling the world. But those are also one of the most difficult period of our life as well. Simply because we’ll have to work with a manipulative and delusional bitch and get caught up in whirlwind of office politic. At times you will feel that you don’t know who to trust, you’ll feel miserable because you would want to do the right thing all the time. But don’t worry because you’ll have a lots of friends (and a great team) at work who will give you all the support that you need. And no matter what, everything will turn out fine…don’t look back when you leave at 34. Close the chapter and forgive those who has caused you much misery and endless sleepless nights.
And now, here I am. At 35. Typing this blog post on our Mac Book Air, which is the coolest machine even made by Steve Job.
I love you Karen, no matter how you turned out to be. And I’ll talk to you again when you are 35 and me 67.